i woke up in nashville, with a few babes and really good hair.

This is a very long overdue blog post and I did not just want to let it go! It was just too good.



 In January, myself and a few of my favorite Monat girls flew out to Nashville to host a MEET MONAT event at my besties. Her husband is in the music industry so they live there part time and air bnb their Nashville home for the rest of the month. Needless to say this house was designed to the 9 and has all the good vibes you'll need in Music City,  CLICK HERE TO BOOK!

I had never been to Nashville and I am a country music junky so I decided to make a little trip out of it.


Nashville had just so happen to get a SNOW STORM days before we flew in, little did we know we would be leaving 75 degree sunny southern California Janruary weather for 12 degree, snowy freezing Nashville. We were ready!

I feel like I can write for days about this trip but I'm  just going to get to the point. All of us girls were so pumped to be on a "work trip" that felt more like a girls getaway! We went to some of the cutest little places I have ever been to, I am all about the ambiance of a place. Nashville knocked it out of the park, the food was INSANELY amazing every where, people were so NICE, like even the girl bartenders. If you live in southern California you know, girl bartenders are not nice to other girls most of the time. Anyways!

 Lauren, Me, Connie, Christina, Britty Rose

Lauren, Me, Connie, Christina, Britty Rose

I always feel like before I host any event I envision how it will be or what will go down. It NEVER goes as planned or how I envisioned it. Not in a bad way, but sometimes things are just crazy busy and nothing I wanted to do or say gets done. Not with this event, this night was PERFECT!!!! We had nearly 100 Monat babes under one roof and the most amazing part was that we all had our own journeys that led up to this night, together. As a team of women who are CONQUERING the world, one good hair day at a time!


You always wake up feeling like a million bucks the night after an event, feeling so inspired, so powerful. I was excited to be there a couple days after to really take in everything that was going on in my personal life and try to focus on what my future would be. 

The night after our event, Jeremy and Lauren took me to a KID ROCK concert that their good friends 'A Thousand Horses' (who are so badass + GREAT live too) were opening for. OH. MY. GAAAAWWWWD. If you have not seen Kid Rock at least once in your life you are truly missing out. UNREAL performer. Like the whole time all I could think was "this man is truly doing what God put him on this earth to do, entertain". I have never been a huge fan, I mean I liked some of his music here and there but I get addicted to artists/songs for weeks and have them on repeat until I can't hear it anymore. I've never done that with him.

Until after his show! Truly amazing!

After a few days in music city, uncountable face times to my babes, getting "dressed up" for 4 days in a row, laughing until my stomach hurt, eating the best food, drinking chai lattes that were bright yellow but so good, + taking a bath every morning I was ready to get HOME TO MY BABIES!!! I wish I had more photos, I planned on doing a full vlog but sometimes you just gotta live in the moment.

Love Always, 



I have some food for thought and I wanted share with you guys and talk about EXPECTATION. Expectation is a word that should not be taken lightly. I have learned over the years with my own personal relationships, friendships, and myself that expectation will ALWAYS lead to disappointment. Not sometimes, but every single time. 


Now let me elaborate a bit because I am sure some of you are mistaking the word "expectation" for being self driven or setting goals. No, having an expectation of yourself or someone else is not a healthy way to have a goal or put effort into anything in any way, shape, or form. 

Now days, it's so easy to get consumed in social media or constantly compare yourself, your relationships, your children, or even your homes to others. Living a facade with my marriage and our "picture perfect" family photos was an "expectation" I had for myself. I expected myself to work through issues when in fact I should have never been put in that position in the first place. 

I'll use our Christmas for instance. Divorce was already out on the table, I knew in my heart we were done, that I would soon face a road where I had never imagined traveling before. But, we put on our happy faces to show the world our beautiful family. I knew everyone was expecting a nice cute family photo, so I made sure it happened. Outside of those picture perfect moments we maybe said 10 words to each other, we did not touch once, we did not even eat dinner together. In the back of my head I expected things to change, I expected someone to be something they never were, ultimately leading to disappointment. I was not being true to myself, I was being true to the expectations of myself. 

We cannot live a life expecting ourselves and others do be or do what we "think" they should. God has it all planned out, it's out of our control. Your story has already been written, we are just here to enjoy the ride.

Don't be distracted. Keep your best interest at heart and stay TRUE to you. Don't let reality shows or social media interfere with your happiness. Don't expect people to change. Ever. One of the quotes I read in December that truly was life-changing for me because it was so raw and real was this. 



I know this may seem a little all over the place but it's all a common moral. If everyone would just be true to themselves this world would be a better place. 

Love Always, 


breaking point

First things first I would like to say THANK YOU, to everyone who has supported me. Your words, your quotes, your books, and inspiring stories truly are so amazing and I will be forever grateful. 


There was something that came from sharing my journey with all of you that I was NOT expecting, at all. Sadly, it was to find out how MANY women are unhappy in their marriages or relationships. Heart breaking to say the least because I've lived it, I've felt it, I know it all too well. Most with kids, many in mentally and some physically abusive relationships.

Fortunately, for me, it was more of "we grew apart" as individuals and after years of trying to come "together". It was our time to each, INDIVIDUALLY find what in life truly set our souls on fire. Being with someone from 17 years old until almost 29, I am a VERY different person now. Your standards for life when your 17 and when you're almost 29 (but feel like you're 45) with two kids and 2 businesses are COMPLETELY different. 

When you're truly happy in your life, it's like you're in a tunnel and all these lit up paths start going off. I am still trying to navigate all of this so I don't want to come off like I "know it all". I don't. But I do know that I made a decision in my life to seek true, pure, genuine happiness with myself for my babies. Sometimes the people we "think" will be part of that journey, are not. You mourn a person or relationship that is still there, but not. Talk about mind f*cking. 

Reaching a breaking point is like climbing up a mountain with no water, no shoes, no support. It's going to be hard and it's going to take a long time. Especially when you have someone saying "here, drink this water". You can essentially hit a pause button to feed the thirst, but when that water is gone you're back to being on the side of a mountain with nothing, so you climb and climb until the next time you get that water break. Slowly but surely you make it to the top. When you're at the top you don't need ANYTHING from anyone because you have conquered something that in those moments of struggle you NEVER thought you could. That's how you reach a breaking point in a marriage or relationship. The water, the thirst is the love you have for your family, your children, the idea of something that is not truly there but during that time you gave in because it was what you needed in that moment.

I hope this is making sense, whether you are still climbing or you have reached the top, you are not ALONE. 

I would say in nearly EVERY single failed marriage or relationship they "tried" to work things out once or twice or maybe even 15 times. Ultimately making it to the top of that mountain and facing their fears to walk away.

Realizing, they are MORE than they ever thought they were or could be.

For years, my babies were what held me there. I couldn't fathom spending a night without my boys. I didn't want another woman or man coming into my children lives. I did not want to miss their first time trying something new. The biggest struggle of them all was "how will this effect them as young adults and in their future relationships?". 

The struggle is REAL.

When you reach that point of breaking in a marriage, those things no longer resinate. You have all the answers even when you don't.

You will NEED GOD. If it were not for my faith, I would not be in the place I am today. I left everything to God, I knew this would be a battle I couldn't fight on my own, mentally and emotionally. I don't have the answers. I can't see the future. But, I do know one thing and that is I am finding MY OWN HAPPINESS, to be a better mom, a better friend, a better daughter, a better sister, and a BETTER ME.

Love Always, 




What is picture perfect to you?

I've been told for years "You guys are the perfect family!", but why? Because we can all look nice for a photo? Because we can smile for a moment? Because we go to fun places or because we have nice things? 

Our "picture perfect" looking life was far from perfect.  I have always tried to keep it as real as I possible but when I realized that even my own "real" wasn't real, that my vision was a facade, it changed me as a person. When you look reality in the face and don't like what you see, you try to "fix" it. Every time you try to fix it you think of the last time and the time before that and the time before that and the time before that. Then almost 12 years later you realize almost every life decision or purchase was an effort towards "fixing" something that was not fixable it was just not meant to be. 

I thought I was where I was suppose to be. In fact, I guess you can say I was right where I was suppose to be for that chapter of my life and I know God makes no mistakes with his plan. Yes, I know, a lot of you are saying "Divorce is not of God". I get it, I really do and trust me when I say it was a decision that was hard to make, it was a reality that was hard to face. I thought marriage would be one of our "fix it, make everything better" things and here I am less that a year and half later filing for divorce. 

There are so many things as young adults we do not think about when we get into a relationship. Growth, being the biggest factor. What do you want out of life and your future? How do you want to be treated when you're sick? How do you want someone to take care of you after you have just had their baby? How do you want to be valued as a mother? How do you want to be celebrated when you achieve something you have worked so hard for?  I am a give what you get type of person. I wouldn't say it's my best quality but it definitely draws the line in many relationships I have with family, friends, business, etc. I know what I bring to the table and I will not accept anything less than that. 

You realize unhappiness when you find happiness, if that makes any sense at all. My babies have always been true happiness and they were the glue that kept us together as long as we were. If you know me, you know I am a worker. I have ALWAYS been and always will be. When I founded Salvaged Soul, nearly 5 years ago it filled a void. I found something that was fulfilling in a sense of being valued and appreciated. I built a business that I could pour my heart and soul into that was rewarding emotionally. I have never said any of this out loud or actually ever even thought of it the way I am now but it just keeps coming together more and more.

No, I am not doing this blog post for "attention" or to "explain" myself. I am doing this because I want to share my TRUTH. You don't have to like it or read it or follow me or like me or understand me. Im cool with that. 

Love Always,



Salvaged Soul x Tribe Kelley

I like things that are cool without trying, TRIBE KELLEY is cool without trying.


A brand that truly speaks to my soul. The simplicity is refreshing and easy.

Sexy enough to wear out on date night and cozy enough to wear to bed. LITERALLY.


I swear my sixth sense is finding brands/businesses with RAD founders.

Brittney + husband Brian Kelley ((of Florida Georgia Line)) founded and designed this line & let's just say they are KILLING IT. There is not one piece to date and I probably have about 15 that I am not 100% in love with. All made in the US with incredible quality too. 


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Thank you so much to my sissy Kayla Wray for capturing the brand and myself as authentic and amazing as you did. I love you! (( click her name to follow her on Insta)) 

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