Showering Our 3rd Baby Boy


So here’s the truth.

I went back and forth and may or may not have cancelled this baby shower more than once. Maybe it had to do with my hormones or maybe I just felt like this being my third baby I did not need it.

Needless to say I could not be more thankful and happy I fought through my crazy pregnancy hormones and my sister in law insisted on celebrating my baby boy.


Per usual I did not want anything about this day to be traditional #nobabyblue

The colors would be black and gold and his name (which was Stone at the time, why we chose Axl will be another post) would contribute inspiration to the theme of his baby shower.


I kind of went back and forth on an astrology themed baby shower but when I saw the moons and stars it just fit. I have some things like the mobile and the coat aka baby carrier hanger on the back of the door in the nursery that were gold moons too.

Just like with our previous boys baby showers this one would be co-ed as well so we can enjoy the day together with our closest friends and family!

This day definitely made us having this baby more real for me. I feel like you’re so busy when you have other kids and running a business you don’t really have time to reflect on what is about to happen and how your life is going to change, But then! You have a baby shower and suddenly have soooo much baby stuff that needs to be put away and takes up a whole room and it’s like OMG there’s a real baby coming into our world.

From this point on I kind of took a step back and really wanted to be present in the time leading up to our third baby boys arrival.


OBVIOUSLY a jumper was a necessity


According to river and kashe all the kids would be bored if we didn’t get one haha

Call me crazy but I personally don’t like committing or going to things on the weekends where I can’t bring my kids and husband during our time off together. To me, days like this are meant for memories with everyone I love and their babes.


Clearly that resulted in a a TON of people!


The dudes


The babes

HUGE thank you to my sister in laws and aunt for putting up with my micro managing pain in the ass self and making this day so special. Love you guys!

Dig my vibe? Shop the goods!

Earrings + Necklaces + Rings/ Erin Fader > code: SALVAGEDSOUL15 for discount

Velvet Jumpsuit/ Forever 21

Custom Crystal Cookies/ Star’s Candy Factory

Moon + Star Balloons, Marble Balloons, Marble Plates/ Amazon

Photos/ Sayhge Photography



What is picture perfect to you?

I've been told for years "You guys are the perfect family!", but why? Because we can all look nice for a photo? Because we can smile for a moment? Because we go to fun places or because we have nice things? 

Our "picture perfect" looking life was far from perfect.  I have always tried to keep it as real as I possible but when I realized that even my own "real" wasn't real, that my vision was a facade, it changed me as a person. When you look reality in the face and don't like what you see, you try to "fix" it. Every time you try to fix it you think of the last time and the time before that and the time before that and the time before that. Then almost 12 years later you realize almost every life decision or purchase was an effort towards "fixing" something that was not fixable it was just not meant to be. 

I thought I was where I was suppose to be. In fact, I guess you can say I was right where I was suppose to be for that chapter of my life and I know God makes no mistakes with his plan. Yes, I know, a lot of you are saying "Divorce is not of God". I get it, I really do and trust me when I say it was a decision that was hard to make, it was a reality that was hard to face. I thought marriage would be one of our "fix it, make everything better" things and here I am less that a year and half later filing for divorce. 

There are so many things as young adults we do not think about when we get into a relationship. Growth, being the biggest factor. What do you want out of life and your future? How do you want to be treated when you're sick? How do you want someone to take care of you after you have just had their baby? How do you want to be valued as a mother? How do you want to be celebrated when you achieve something you have worked so hard for?  I am a give what you get type of person. I wouldn't say it's my best quality but it definitely draws the line in many relationships I have with family, friends, business, etc. I know what I bring to the table and I will not accept anything less than that. 

You realize unhappiness when you find happiness, if that makes any sense at all. My babies have always been true happiness and they were the glue that kept us together as long as we were. If you know me, you know I am a worker. I have ALWAYS been and always will be. When I founded Salvaged Soul, nearly 5 years ago it filled a void. I found something that was fulfilling in a sense of being valued and appreciated. I built a business that I could pour my heart and soul into that was rewarding emotionally. I have never said any of this out loud or actually ever even thought of it the way I am now but it just keeps coming together more and more.

No, I am not doing this blog post for "attention" or to "explain" myself. I am doing this because I want to share my TRUTH. You don't have to like it or read it or follow me or like me or understand me. Im cool with that. 

Love Always,